"Super" brainymama "bad" pregnancy experiences

I'm one of the brainy mamas, labelled as "super" bariny mama. Why the label? No, I don't dress like a Superman (i.e. wearing the underwear outside :P) It's because I am a working & studying mama! I have 2 kids, age 6 & 1 and do not have a domestic helper. Fortunately I have my mom to babysit my kids while I work & study. Actually, I'm not "super" at all, I faced problems, too.

Before we started this blog, I was already planning to share what I experienced for my 2 pregnancies. The reason I chose this topic is that during then (both pregnancy period) I felt so alone, as if I am the only one having such problems though my gynae and nurses been assuring me that I'm not the only one....yes I also believe that I'm not the only one BUT when I visited the clinic, I'm always the only one looking so so ill....

I had severe vomitting during both pregnancies and it lasted throughout the whole pregnancy! During the 1st pregnancy, I started vomitting when I was 6 weeks pregnant and I threw up everything I ate or drink, even water! I was hospitalised due to dehydration and was given oral anti-nausea/vomitting medication which I had no idea that I would be allegic to. The reaction to the drug was BAD - I had upper jaw twisting to the left and lower jaw to the right, my eye balls kept rolling up into my upper lids and my fingers were stiff. I was like that for 5 hours before the doctors figured out that it was the reaction to the drug and it is known as "Oculogyric crisis". At one time, the pain was so unbearable that I requested the doctors to have me "cured" even if it is harmful to the baby. Luckily, the treatment had no side-effect on the baby and I "survived" that episode! I managed through the rest of the journey by eating & vomiting....till baby was borned!

For the 2nd pregnancy, I did a pregnancy test before I missed my period and was positive! It was then around the 4th week! I was eating really well then and many commented that I really looked pregnant! Well, for a moment I was thinking "hmmm...finally different from 1st pregnancy!" But this did not last....I started vomiting on the 5th week! This time, I got worst, nothing seems to stay this time, not even a spoonful. I requested to stay in the hospital to get "hydrated" (on drip)! I was in and out of the hospital every now & then for the 1st trimester. Each stay was a week long. Finally into my 2nd trimester, I started to eat spoonfuls (5 the most) though I was constantly feeling hungry. The vomiting persists and I got really depressed. I kept to myself, in my own world, I had no interest in anything then. Too weak to walk, I lost 9kgs, I lost my muscles, I don't like to talk, I was bad-tempered, I cried often even over the slightest issue. Yes, ante-natal BLUEs I had then! Then came the threathened pre-term labour and medication to stop contraction....all driving me crazy. Eventually I survived the episode and my baby was finally out on the 35th week!

Well, for both pregnanies I lost weight instead of gaining and 2nd was worst than 1st! But for the sake of the babies, I "survivied" the episodes. Ask if I dare to go for another one....well, no thanks....really! I love kids but I do not enjoy the pregnancy!

Well, I hope by sharing these bad experiences, people who have similar experiences like me can share yours, too. So that I'm not ALONE! And for those who are blessed with really smooth ones, well, go for more! Kids are adorable and fun. Most importantly, they light up your life!